2022

Current Mild Episode of Depressive Disorder

Trouble falling asleep, staying asleep through the night, or feelings of restlessness? Yes, maybe more than half the time. Feelings of anxiousness or hopelessness? Yes, maybe less than half the time. Little interest or pleasure in doing things? Yes, maybe several times. Feeling tired or have no energy? Yes, maybe several times. *But I am a preschool teacher, so is […]

2022

I Miss You

I’m ok when I’m at work. I’m ok when I’m at Bar Method. I’m even ok when I’m sitting on the bench outside my apartment reading a book. It’s when I stop working or stop moving or stop doing something that it starts to hurt again. That’s when the silence starts to scream at me and remind me of all […]

2022

Plant

For the past two months- maybe even longer- I’ve used “plant” as my starting Wordle word. It’s not the best starting word. I could definitely pick something more efficient. More times than not I get no useful letters from it. But I’ve stuck with it. I’ve stayed faithful to plant. Then this morning I woke up, flipped through some text […]

2022

People Don’t Care

I cried myself to sleep the other night. Which is neither surprising or a new occurrence. It was for a combination of reasons though. But it wasn’t just a quick sob and then I was done. It was a long, painful cry. It started out as sadness, but then it became a fight. Truthfully, I wasn’t being so nice to […]

2022

I Can’t Do This

I can’t do this. Every time Chelsea tells me to take it down an inch and hold, I roll my eyes. I’m telling her in my head, “No Chelsea, no. I will not take it down an inch.” And then she has the nerve to tell me to step an arms distance away from the bar and hinge over like […]