2020 / Uncategorized

Fairytales

For as long as I can remember, I’ve created fairytales in my head. Long before the Disneyland season passes and the obsession with magic and dreams and happily ever afters, I had the story I was writing. And the story in high school was to make it to college. And not just any college, but Point Loma Nazarene University. And […]

2020 / Uncategorized

Shining Rainbows

I am bright shining rainbows. I am the light at the end of the tunnel. I am the “there’s always a positive side!” That’s who I am. That’s who I’ve programmed myself to be. But this year was rain cloud after rain cloud after rain cloud. It was darkness and a never ending trek through the wilderness. It was asking […]

2020 / Uncategorized

Crying, Literally Everyday

Guys, I haven’t even started writing and I’m already crying. There’s this cliché (or maybe it’s a bible verse- sorry Jesus, I’ll read my bible more) that talks about God catching all of your tears. As if each tear is caught and stored away in a bucket. And if you know me, then we can both safely assume that my […]

2020 / Uncategorized

The Question

I’m writing this now. Before I have birthday dinner after birthday dinner after birthday dinner. Before I hop on a plane and fly home. Before the tears start flowing and the answer becomes less clear. I’m writing this now. Typically when I write it comes from a place of questioning, reflecting, and then having lived through the experience enough to […]

2020 / Uncategorized

Stop Trying to Understand

I was up late the other night. As is the case most nights, because I find myself mindlessly scrolling through Instagram for hours on end. And on this particular night I had scrolled through just about everything I could scroll through. So, I transferred my attention to Facebook to mindlessly scroll through that. And when I signed onto Facebook I […]