Since the minute I left Hawaii last August I’ve battled with the idea of returning or creating a new adventure. My plan was never to return but instead to return to Europe and travel. I love to travel the world to see new things and experience new cultures, but I also loved Hawaii and it’s people, it’s church, and it’s lifestyle.
For months and months I let myself hold onto both opportunities in fear that choosing one over the other would be heartbreaking. Little did I realize that my procrastination would lead to making the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make. In the same week my doors were open to two extraordinary opportunities: 1. return to Hawaii to be an intern or 2. spend my summer as an au pair in Melbourne, Australia.
All week I weighed the pros and cons in my mind. Australia pro, I’ve never been to Australia. Australia pro, I can get involved in the Hillsong church. Australia con, airfare would be expensive, and their seasons are opposite of the United States. Hawaii pro, I love Hawaii! Hawaii pro, I would be able to continue nurturing the relationships I’ve formed the summer before. Hawaii con, I’ve been there and done that.
Either option gave me the opportunity to have an incredible and unforgettable summer, so how do I choose. How do I say no to something I love? But how do I say no to the opportunity to do what I love? All week I’ve sought the advice of friends and family. Each time I thought about it my heart would break more and more. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I pray to God that whatever it is it’s where He wants me.