Hi God,
You are so good.
And because you are good, I do not need to know what happens next.
Everything in my life has pointed to how wonderful you are. Everything has proven how much you love me. Time and time again you show up, and you do incredibly more than I could ever ask for or imagine.
Like before college. When I had everything planned- my escape route was solidified. I’d finally go away. Finally build my own life. Do the things I dreamed of. Point Loma was set in stone. Or so I thought. Because in one phone call, I saw my dreams of the future vanish away. Why did private Christian school have to be so expensive? I cried. Everyone told me to start coming up with a plan B. But being me, I wouldn’t settle for anything else. And being you, you made a way I would have never expected. At 17, I stooped to the most vulnerable place I could ever be. A position I would have never put myself in willingly. But I trusted you God, and while you took me through twists and turns, you gave me exactly what I wanted.
You have always known my heart, and you give me everything I hope for in ways I could have never planned on my own.
Then there was the time in college. Year after year after year. Why did private Christian school have to be so expensive? I didn’t get the RA position. I cried. I distinctly remember sitting in chapel and crying while everyone was closing their eyes and praying. But one closed door allowed you to open up an even better one. Instead, I studied abroad. I lived in Europe for a semester. Incredible.
You have always pulled me in the right direction, and you take me places I could never dream were possible.
And just last year, you gave me a new home. Why did rent in Hawaii have to be so expensive? I cried before, during, and after that whole process. Knowing that I had to move, not knowing where to move to, and even as I found a perfect beyond perfect new place to live that checked all the boxes. There was so much uncertainty. There was so much fear in not knowing. And there was so much grief in saying goodbye to the home I shared with my favorite person. But my new home was already love at first sight, and it was only going to get better from there.
You have always known what is best for me, and you put it in my life at the precise moment when you know I am ready to receive it.
God you are good.
Over and over again my life is a testament to how good you are.
If what is to happen next is even of fraction of what has happened in the past, then I don’t need to worry. I don’t need to think twice, because I know you have really, really good things set aside for me.
Amen