The world has been spinning. Round and round on its orbit. Slowing down for no one and nothing. Just how it’s always been. Just how it’ll always be.
My world has been spinning. Faster and faster every day. Somehow fitting more while working with less. Just how it’s always been. Just how it’ll always be.
That’s why I sort of forgot. Sort of overlooked this seemingly small yet likewise life-changing decision.
She’s moving.
The time has come for me to close this chapter. A chapter that has spanned for the greater part of my life. It has seen college and early adulthood. There have been breakthroughs, break ups, and break downs. Yet for every tear shed, there has been an “ah-ha, I see what you did there God” moment as well. It’s all there.
I don’t think I would be who I am now without this space. This corner of the world where I matured. You can see it point blank from day one to today. The way my story has changed- both in how I tell it and how it plays out in front of me.
Never could I have imagined that this would be mine. My safe haven. My gift from God. And yet here I am so very proud and so very in love with what I have gotten to possess. Though it’s goodbye, it’s not the end.
My decision was made out of a desire to start new. To start fresh and to start on my own. I want to keep doing this thing that I’m doing. It’s not because I hate it how it is now or because I think I’m terrible in this present moment. I know that I am good. I know that what I present to the world is good, and I think all together it gives me good. So, I’m not running away. Far from it.
The move has already started. Those close to me know where I’m going, and why I’m doing it there. I have one foot out the door and one foot firmly planted in. I don’t think I know what it will be like to say goodbye until it’s time to fully clean everything out.
Because one day I’ll look for the thing that was mine for so long, and it won’t be mine anymore. That’s the day I’ll feel sad. Maybe a little bit of longing. A touch of missing what was once familiar to me that will no longer exist.
I’ve got a few months. The contract doesn’t expire until December.
So from now until then, time to soak it all in and reread every last post.
Goodbye Meg Alexandra.