In my first every therapy session, Meighan asked why I was there. She asked why I felt like seeking out therapy. My answer was simple. I told her like many other people that year- the pandemic year- I felt lonely. A no-friends-to-hang-out-with, a no-family-in-close-vicinity, and a no-work-to-spend-my-day-at type of lonely. And somewhere in my naïve mind, I thought that maybe […]
2023
Mean Sister
I can write this, because she won’t read it. Mikey might read it, because he reads everything. Lynnie might read it, because she gets it sent to her email as soon as I write it. Heck, Anu might even read it after her nearly three-hour long binge the other night of everything I’ve written in the past few years. (I […]
2022
Bright
I have my first therapy session of the year in an hour. Meighan’s probably going to ask me about my day… To which I’m going to tell her that I woke up at 1 PM because I pulled an all-nighter to binge watch a Korean drama. I finally went to sleep when the sun started rising… So my day has […]
2022
It Was Supposed to Crush Me
It was supposed to crush me. All signs pointed towards a complete wreckage. I was tossing and turning and waking up once an hour with a panic attack. I wasn’t eating anything more than just a fig bar for weeks. And my anxiety over living alone had gotten so bad that my mom had to come and live with me […]
2022
It’s Happening Already
Maybe if I weren’t so aware of my emotions. Or maybe if I had the emotional literacy of a rock. Then it’d be easier to ignore it. I’d have a better chance at pretending it wasn’t there. But unfortunately, I’m not and I can’t. I’ve spent my entire adult life trying to better understand my feelings and emotions. Trying to […]