2020 / Uncategorized

It’s Not If, It’s When

My boss has told us this over and over and over again. At least once every staff meeting she brings it up and it’s her go to phrase. I think to some extent it’s meant to console us, but sometimes it just leaves me feeling more anxious and afraid. Still, I know she means the best when she tells us. […]

2020 / Uncategorized

Nothing

I don’t think I heard anything. It’s not for lack of trying. I listened to worship music on my way to work. I paid attention to any signs or words of wisdom throughout my day. During my evening walk I put my AirPods away and just walked in silence. But still, nothing. So instead of writing, I turned to my […]

2020 / Uncategorized

Who You Say I Am

I heard this one. But then I ignored it. I tucked it away, hoping that I wouldn’t have to face it or think about it. But now it’s time for me to think about it. Literally, as I write these words, it’s time to think about it. Who do I say God is? This one is straight from Sunday’s sermon. […]

2020 / Uncategorized

Down

I want to believe this one. I really do. With every fiber of my being I want to believe this is what God is telling me. But it’s not easy. I have been on an uphill climb for so long, that I don’t know what it looks like to go down. I don’t remember what it feels like for life […]

2020 / Uncategorized

My People

There was no agenda. I’ve prayed for my finances. I’ve prayed for the guy I liked to come back to Hawaii. Actually, I’ve prayed for guys I liked on more than one occasion… But this time, I didn’t really have anything in mind. The only thing I could think I needed to pray for were my people. I wanted to […]